Sunday, May 31, 2009
Hmmm.. I Just had the wierdest yet heartfelt dream,kinda of thats why i woke up coz i don't wish it really did happen.. anyway, it will soon or later. haha.. Alright.. It's abt 1 of my previous crushes getting married.. LOL!! Weird isn't it.. I was like helping her with her gown selection and stuff to prepare for e wedding.. But somehow.. my heart started to ache.. Even when i woke up.. Damn strange, as if it was real. Sigh.. But eventually every1 has to get married eh? My heartaching don't really know if because i'm still just a little not over her? Lol,shrugs..
After hearing the preching in the chruch, I suddenly realised what I'd been afraid of... Not you ah BEILIN!!! haha.. yet it's also partly e reason why I'm single for 20 yrs. haha.. I'm afraid to COMMIT!! Come to think of it, yeah.. It makes perfect sense.. Everytime I wanna Woo some1, something or a part of me is restraining and holding me back but giving reason like money and time issue.. But i think the real reason is I'm ain't wanna commit and i'm afraid of breaking up not wanting to accept the fact. Commitment somehow doesn't really work for me.. Is like jz ask me to do volunteery. Actually I can set aside my weekends, I mean other than wasting my weekends playing games and stuff.. could do some meaningful work.. But when i think long term, I'm unable to commit.. and I don't want pple to see me that way.. SUCKS!! ARgg!! haha..
Alright, enuf rattling off.. Ytd was really kinda of 'xiong'.. Played bball then badminton.. Woohoo.. Too much exercise a day makes one too shag to think.. LOL.. to top that off, We chilled at coffee bean and play CITADEL or something.. a card game that makes pple think.. LOL. and guess wad!! I WON YET AGAIN!! hahahaha.. Barely.. Nothing to be proud of.. but haha.. a win is a win.. hee.. But at e end of the day, some1 else had e last laugh.. Shan't go into that.. Haha.. But She'll always be stick in my memory liao.. Can't 4get her.. ARGGG!!! haha.. No worries..
Peace Out PPLE..
Posted by Flameboi23 at 9:08 AM