Sunday, May 31, 2009

Hmmm.. I Just had the wierdest yet heartfelt dream,kinda of thats why i woke up coz i don't wish it really did happen.. anyway, it will soon or later. haha.. Alright.. It's abt 1 of my previous crushes getting married.. LOL!! Weird isn't it.. I was like helping her with her gown selection and stuff to prepare for e wedding.. But somehow.. my heart started to ache.. Even when i woke up.. Damn strange, as if it was real. Sigh.. But eventually every1 has to get married eh? My heartaching don't really know if because i'm still just a little not over her? Lol,shrugs..

After hearing the preching in the chruch, I suddenly realised what I'd been afraid of... Not you ah BEILIN!!! haha.. yet it's also partly e reason why I'm single for 20 yrs. haha.. I'm afraid to COMMIT!! Come to think of it, yeah.. It makes perfect sense.. Everytime I wanna Woo some1, something or a part of me is restraining and holding me back but giving reason like money and time issue.. But i think the real reason is I'm ain't wanna commit and i'm afraid of breaking up not wanting to accept the fact. Commitment somehow doesn't really work for me.. Is like jz ask me to do volunteery. Actually I can set aside my weekends, I mean other than wasting my weekends playing games and stuff.. could do some meaningful work.. But when i think long term, I'm unable to commit.. and I don't want pple to see me that way.. SUCKS!! ARgg!! haha..

Alright, enuf rattling off.. Ytd was really kinda of 'xiong'.. Played bball then badminton.. Woohoo.. Too much exercise a day makes one too shag to think.. LOL.. to top that off, We chilled at coffee bean and play CITADEL or something.. a card game that makes pple think.. LOL. and guess wad!! I WON YET AGAIN!! hahahaha.. Barely.. Nothing to be proud of.. but haha.. a win is a win.. hee.. But at e end of the day, some1 else had e last laugh.. Shan't go into that.. Haha.. But She'll always be stick in my memory liao.. Can't 4get her.. ARGGG!!! haha.. No worries..

Peace Out PPLE..

Posted by Flameboi23 at 9:08 AM

Saturday, May 9, 2009

Wah, It's been long since I've Typed on keyboard,haha..

Hmmm, So far my life is okay, everything got postponed hence I'm still a trainee. Haha..

Anyway, recently there are thing that I've learnt and theres also problem i need to control.
1) My Anger Management
2)I became unafraid to ask the higher authority and not just sit there and wait for instructions=)
3) Goals in Life

1st up is my Anger Management. Don't know why recently, I can get irritated damn easily. Usually I'll just take it with a pinch of salt but now, I kinda of do things at the heat of moment but by GOD's Grace.. Thankfully nothing happens or else I wouldn't be here typing.. Haha.. I mean I think there's a tolerance level to pranking within friends.. But last time i would just give the person a cold shoulder.. Haiz, maybe going be 21, hormones changing.. Hahaha.. Oh well, I hope that I can solve the by not playing too much violent games.. Maybe that's why.. We'll see how things go.

Next on list: Yup, I've mustered up courage to ask those higher authorities if something isn't right or if somethings needs to be given/done. I know by doing this, my repo will be up and all the "sai kang" will be arrowed to us. Hmmm, that's where friends come in.. We'll do everything together and get OFF together!! Hahahah.. I mean this is a + points in life bah. If you take everything laid back, you end up doing things miserable/unneccessary. Hmmm, if higher authorities are like ladies.. Hahaha...

Last by not least: Goals in Life. Hmmm, I find it very hard to define that. Because how often would one reaches his goal? Maybe if you'd set unrealistic Goal, I'd understand. But basic goals like dream job, how many people can work a job and enjoy what they are doing? That's why I'm kinda of having mix feelings about setting goals too far ahead. But does it make me not wanting to improve myself? I guess its personal viewing.. Anyway, I feel that goals are made to motivate one to work harder, YES, but it can also make one sad if goals are unreachable. SO, I think I'll just have short term goals, reach liao then set again. As for my long term goal, It's just to get married :) Possible ah?!?!! Haha..

Air + Water = Rain
This is a pretty dynamic partnership, as Venus, Mars and Pluto combine to create one of the more passionate love matches of the zodiac. These are the ruling planets for both your star signs, and they are male–female planets that typify love throughout history. _ will be extremely attracted to your sensual and sensitive side, and you’ll recognise the deeper more ardent aspect of the _ temperament.

However, you’ll have a few big differences to overcome in this partnership.Because you prefer an open-ended social or romantic arrangement, you’ll have trouble _’s possessive and demanding behaviour. That jealous streak of theirs is something you’re going to have to get around at some point. You’ll need to dig deep into your arsenal of diplomatic weaponry to deal with _’s controlling and inflexible side. The fact that you are an air element means you will be fascinated by the more reflective _. There will be a great connection in terms of communication and intellectual understanding.

_ has deep perception of life and is intrigued by the mystery of human nature and life generally. This also fascinates you and draws you close to them on a level that other star signs may not achieve. From _’s point of view, you’ll stimulate them and penetrate their sturdy, icy exterior, which not everyone can do. So _ will feel an emotional and sexual affinity with you. This is a distinct plus for your compatibility as a whole.

In your long-term relationship there could be good prospects in terms of material security: you could actually make quite a bit of money together if you persevere with the relationship. However, _’s silent treatment could frustrate you no end when you try to extract information from them. They will only reveal certain things on their terms, so don’t hold your breath.

Some Horoscope thingy.. Haha.. I think it's kinda of true, So yeah.. Tough Luck.. But hey, It's just horoscope, there might be human errors by the astronomers.. LOL!!
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Posted by Flameboi23 at 8:50 AM